I’m ambivalent about the US elections. Here’s my take on why. McCain: fight the war on Iraq till the very end - things continue as they are, and people die. Obama: withdraw from Iraq - local factions fight against each other, and people die. McClain: tax cuts for the rich and big business - more incentive to start your own business/current businesses stay afloat, people retain employment and spend $$$ –> economy = good. Obama: tax cuts for the middle class - middle class got more money, but more likely to lose their jobs.

Like it matters who wins. The differences seem immaterial.

“I have missed more than 9000 shots in my career. I have lost almost 300 games. On 26 occassions I have been entrusted to take the game winning shot . . . and missed. And I have failed over and over and over again in my life. And that is why… I succeed.”Michael Jordan

There’s this completely useless subject that i do at university to fill up my free range options. It’s called ‘managing business communication’. I know its useless because the name is stupid. I know its useless because only an useless 2nd yr subject would still spend time justifying its usefulness.

The tutor looks rougly about 60 years old. He’s dressed with yellow jumper and matching khaki like he’s about ready to play golf. He’s speaking about stereotypes. He goes on about stereotypes at length for about 30 minutes. I get it. I got what i needed to know well before the 30 minute mark.  

Then the funniest shit happens. To prove his point about sterotypes he says to the nearest asian guy,

“Are you chinese?”

“Er. Yes.”

“Do you know how to play chinese whispers?”

“Er, no”

“THERE WE GO!”, he exclaims as if he has made the most amazing discovery of his life.

And then, we proceed to play a game of chinese whispers.

I am shocked. Because I cannot believe what has transpired. Am i only the one? Or are there more of me?

Starbucks closes 61 of it’s stores in Australia. Let me put that into perspective. Starbucks operates 74 stores Australia-wide. It’s about time! I intensely dislike their oversized, cardboard coffee.

ex-girlfriends - people you’ve left tucked away in your mind on purpose and tried very hard to put them folder labelled hidden and entitled ‘do not open’. it’s just easier that way. i used to be confused why it was important for them to be happy after the fact. i used to think it was cause i was a nice person, but it’s not. it’s guilt. matt’s mind says - i couldn’t make them happy. in fact, i probably put them some shit too. for all those times i made you upset, i’m glad someone’s doing a fantastic job.

for every nice memory, there’s also a bad memory to go /w it. it’s the bad ones that make me cringe and feel that they deserved way better. i think it’s the bad ones you gotta take /w you as a reminder to not let yourself slip.

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can’t sleep. playing daft punk beats. so catchy. can’t help moving to the beat. ungst.. daft punk beats. they find their way to your head.

my last semester of uni starts tommorow! i’m kinda excited to finish, but kinda uncool about all my friend’s having already graduated. man, i’m going to be bored and lonely. i’m overloading /w three business law subjects. i’ve asked around and the consensus is that this sem will be pretty tough. it’s all worth it though. i do those subjects now, so i won’t need to do them before the CA. i’m going to study and work like a nut this semester and then enjoy the semester break.

i won 100 bucks @ star city the other night. gambling’s not really my thing. i’m sitting there on the bj table. this thought keeps running through my head - statistically, the longer i sit on this chair, the more likely i’m going to lose. it’s something i read somewhere. it’s pretty intuitive, but.. y’know, i’m a dumbass so i can’t think it, i gotta read it in order to know. i put 50 bucks in one go and get 21. time for me to go and get a beer.

Y’know, once you boil it down, it’s a choice between;
a. Small short-term gratification /w high risk of very severe long-term problems with the secondary party.
b. Short-term loss /w low to mid percentage of long-term benefits for both parties.

No matter which angle I observe it from. A makes me feel good right now and there’s no risk for me in the long-term. B is the obvious choice that’s both right and the long-term solution. Even without 20/20 hindsight, the selection for two conclusions are obvious. B is the right call.

I rationalize things. Rationalizing is what i do. It’s all what we must do, isn’t it? 

People die so others can be born. People are born - that’s why people fall in love. Falling in love, so the human race continues to survive.

Religion exists to promote control. Control is there for peace. Without peace, we are in chaos. When we are in chaos, we all get f—ed up. 

People manufacture goods. Goods need to be purchased so people can manufacture them. People need to manufacture them, otherwise they don’t have jobs. When people don’t have jobs, they get f—ed up. That’s why my room is full of s— that I’ve purchased.

Rationalizing allows me to figure out the answer, so i can put the question aside. By finding answers, I save time. I save time, so I can function effectively. My fear is that I will go back to not being able to rationalize, because I’d find someone that makes me feel instead of think. When i feel instead of think, I lose the logic. When I lose the logic, I lose the ability to function effectively.

A weird thing happened to me today. I fell asleep watching a movie. I had a dream. I was in a conversation. The movie was playing. My conversation was repeating what the movie was saying. I woke up amused.

After reading parts of an autobiography of Lee Kuan Yew, a Singaporean leader, I noticed that we both have similiar thought patterns. He’s much smarter though. I suspect, because his autobiography writes that he was so hardcore on assigning blame to himself, he was able to make enormous change. After reading his wiki, my opinon is that he’s a pragmatist - the ends justifies the means. And so, it should.

On this fine Saturday morning, I feel… scared, drunk and hungry , all at the same time. I’m scared because i can’t fix. I’m drunk because i drank. I’m hungry because i haven’t eaten for a while. For the most part, I’m fine and better. But. for some, I sense i’m still missing a vital part of the picure.